Here I am.
Through my own process and experiences with inner healing and transformation, l began in 2014 to guide and support others on their own journey. Then, in 2018 I became Certified in Transformative Coaching with the International Coaching Federation, having the opportunity to reach a larger number of people. Nowadays, through the combination of everything I have learned and experienced, I work with individuals who wish to live from their True Essence, with greater clarity, inner peace, love and fulfilment, facilitating their process of consciously evolving.
MY INITIAL AWAKENING
Years of suffering, led me to discover that our suffering is the portal to awakening and transformation, and that we are all spiritual beings, powerful beyond measure, and capable of setting ourselves free and of experiencing inner peace and fulfilment in the present moment (regardless of the circumstances).
Here is my story:
Up to the age of 13 I grew up in a home filled with affection and financial abundance, until my father was diagnosed with cancer. This tore our family apart and turned my life upside-down. I was still at that stage of development where we tend to idealise our parents and I saw him as my best friend and my protector. A year after he passed, my mother and I were both diagnosed with depression. That same year, I began to wake up in the middle of the night with anxiety and I developed a dysfunctional relationship with food. I went from one relationship to the next, looking for someone to ease my pain and to make me feel loved.
For several years I tried different types of therapy, I took medication and I read every self-help book that I could get my hands on. All of this provided me with temporary relief, but nothing led to a permanent change. Although from the outside it looked like I led wonderful life, on the inside I felt empty, lonely and distressed. Living with anxiety was my natural state and just getting through the day was my main goal. Trapped in the past and fearful of the future, I tried to keep busy and distracted with dance, exercise, travelling and relationships.
On the other hand, it was impossible for me to ignore the changes that I was seeing in my mother, who began to attend sessions with a woman called Alicia E. Moreno. (Although she is not trained in energy therapy, Alicia, through her gift to heal at a soul level, transmits the knowledge that she receives from her inner guide to steer and guide people towards knowing themselves and following the path of their soul). Even though I felt great resistance to going to see her, I chose to try it. She told me that if I wanted to change, I needed to realise that I had to take responsibility. I didn't like that at all (I put up so much resistance) and I left with the decision to never return. I even asked my mother to never speak to me about her again.
Life however, continued to give me what I needed. Exhausted from running away from myself, I still needed to touch further bottom. I began to fear for my life, and so I decided to go to a centre for eating disorders.
Although I was not aware of it, back then, I believed that it was easier to not take care of myself and to give others that responsibility. The doctors told me that I was ill and that I needed to have someone by my side all the time. The vision of the life that awaited me caused me such terror, that it woke me up. For the first time I saw with total clarity, that there were only two paths and that the decision was mine. I could continue blaming my circumstances or I could take responsibility for my own life. To my surprise, I decided to visit Alicia, and so began my journey of healing and of learning how to consciously work on myself.
Through my inner journey and Alicia's guidance, I began to learn about “the hows” that I had always been seeking for. Among them, how to love ourselves unconditionally, how to self-manage and cultivate our inner resources, and how to transcend the ego. As a result of emotionally healing, the anxiety, depression, and the destructive behaviours over time disappeared. And I had yet to understand so much more.
THE POWER OF CONSCIOUS INNER WORK
Several years later I was working in NYC, at a company where I made a “good living”, but after sometime, I began to feel unfulfilled and trapped. I had changed a lot since I had graduated and I no longer fitted in with the traditional aggressive and persuasive ways of doing business. But at the same time, I was so terrified of making a change.
Then life, as it always does, with all of its generosity and love, gave me once again what I needed. I woke up one morning and my foot began hurting, and so began a long phase of 5 years of physical limitation. I could barely walk or sit, and I had very few external resources left to hold onto. I again was faced with two options: either to end my life or to take on life’s invitation to work on accepting, trust and being at peace with what is.
I chose to go deep within myself and use the opportunity to focus on my inner work.
I realised that we are all 100% responsible for our healing and our happiness. The cause of our suffering is never our circumstances, but our lack of awareness and resistance to what is.
I realised that when we understand the cause of our suffering, and choose to accept, trust and focus on the positive, how we feel and the way we perceive the world changes and, as a result, so does our whole life.
Although I still couldn’t walk, it became clear that the days when I believed my fearful thoughts, I would experience suffering and greater physical pain - it would experience hell on earth - but the days when I managed to accept, and remain connected to love and trust, I would feel contentment, peace and harmony within myself and with the circumstances.
Thanks to this situation which invited me to stretch far beyond my confort zone, I learned how to put into practice many of the concepts that in the previous stages I had understood in theory, but still had not fully integrated within myself. It turned out that everything that I had always wished and yearned for was right there, within me, simply waiting for me to wake up to it. I would then realise that this is true for every human being.
Although I had several procedures done and two surgeries, I still couldn't walk, but through the inner work I was doing, I began to feel more at peace and content. People around me began getting curious, and so I therefore began sharing what I was realising and experiencing with them. Without planning it, I found myself guiding and supporting them in their own personal development.
Alicia had been telling me that I would only heal once I completely accepted my reality. It took me almost 5 years, but I finally understood what she meant, and I surrendered. I had made the inner decision that I was going to live a wonderful life despite the foot and physical pain. The inner war was over. And that's when, despite what my doctors expected, I started walking again.
I eventually decided to train as a Coach, as the vehicle to partner with more people in their own journey towards discovering their true self, and create well-being and fulfilment in their own lives.
To this day, I am blown away by the power we have to heal ourselves and transform our lives.
THANK YOU , THANK YOU, THANK YOU
I am eternally thankful to all the people who supported me during these experiences (you know who you are), and to those of you who continue to support me and encourage me to continue on my Soul's path. Among these, my three greatest teachers: my mother, Teresa García Ruz, for always being there with her unconditional love, Alicia E. Moreno for her light and guidance, and to the Divine Source of Life, for every single experience, because it is always giving me what I need to continue waking up and evolving.
ps: My deepest thank you also to every single person in my life who has triggered me up until now, for gifting me with the opportunity to work on myself.
With all my love to you reading this now,
"Only by accepting and loving our whole self - our light and our shadow - can we experience wholeness, and awaken to the infinite power of our True Essence."
- Natalia Geiger -